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Archive for June, 2011

Surgery update

This procedures will take abt 2 – 4 hours. Out patient at surgical center on dallas near Presbyterian hosp.
My surgery involves three procedure called vitrectomy scleral buckle n gas bubble.
Recovery is 80 to 90 percent for general vision. However since the macular is involved the reading n precise vision that is still in question. Healing time weeks to month. New glasses needed in 6 weeks.
They r going to open a small 1,mm slit in eye to remove the jelly that is tearing my retina. They will reattach my retina with laser. Then they will put my macula in place. Then they put a silicone buckle on the outside of my eyeball to help it  prevent more retinal tears. Then they will put gas in my eye to keep the retina in place as it heals. It will be absorbed over weeks or month to be replaced by body fluid. Wish me good prayers success n healing

For those praying for my eye surgery

Psalms 139:13 For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother ‘s womb.  139:14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.  139:15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.  139:16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.  139:17 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!  

Here I go again. Wonder why I cannot do anything small. I guess I like the attention. Really this scares me. They have lasered n cryrogenic surgery on my eye many times. Yet my retina is detached n I have to have a more invasive surgery now. I have been good obeying the docs orders as best I could. This last tear happened while just walking from the kitchen to the bedroom. The doctor believes it all relates to the time I was born. In 1964 I was born premature at 6 mos weighed around 2lbs and was 12 inches long. They did not know how much oxygen to give babies back then m it is called the year of the blind babies. The levels of oxygen caused retinal damage blinding these babies. For more than forty years I have only had nearsightedness with astigmatism. I was in an isolate for 60 days n 30 days on hosp before I went home. God allowed my twin to open the birth canal for me. Normally a boy is the weaker born n often do not make it. My sister died having given her life for me. Two have died that I might live. Tammy lorene in 1964  for physical life n Jesus 2000 years ago for eternal. Life n forgiveness of sins. I am greatly. Blessed with so many friends n family praying for me. What God allows now is ob my doctors hands n his. He created me n knows all abt me. I unequivocally trust God though I am nervous. Pray that I have the patience of job n the meekness of moses, the faith of enoch, the courage of David. The perseverance of paul, the grace of barnabas, the presence of thot like esther, the surrendered spirit of Mary n the servants heart n worshipful attitude of Martha m Mary respectively. May u witness n exemplify Christ while in the hospital as Noah n john the baptizer. N may I grow as I meditate while o can do nothing else while in convalescent trial as David or Samuel of old.

For those praying for my eye surgery

Psalms 139:13 For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother ‘s womb.  139:14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.  139:15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.  139:16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.  139:17 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!  

Here I go again. Wonder why I cannot do anything small. I guess I like the attention. Really this scares me. They have lasered n cryrogenic surgery on my eye many times. Yet my retina is detached n I have to have a more invasive surgery now. I have been good obeying the docs orders as best I could. This last tear happened while just walking from the kitchen to the bedroom. The doctor believes it all relates to the time I was born. In 1964 I was born premature at 6 mos weighed around 2lbs and was 12 inches long. They did not know how much oxygen to give babies back then m it is called the year of the blind babies. The levels of oxygen caused retinal damage blinding these babies. For more than forty years I have only had nearsightedness with astigmatism. I was in an isolate for 60 days n 30 days on hosp before I went home. God allowed my twin to open the birth canal for me. Normally a boy is the weaker born n often do not make it. My sister died having given her life for me. Two have died that I might live. Tammy lorene in 1964  for physical life n Jesus 2000 years ago for eternal. Life n forgiveness of sins. I am greatly. Blessed with so many friends n family praying for me. What God allows now is ob my doctors hands n his. He created me n knows all abt me. I unequivocally trust God though I am nervous. Pray that I have the patience of job n the meekness of moses, the faith of enoch, the courage of David. The perseverance of paul, the grace of barnabas, the presence of thot like esther, the surrendered spirit of Mary n the servants heart n worshipful attitude of Martha m Mary respectively. May u witness n exemplify Christ while in the hospital as Noah n john the baptizer. N may I grow as I meditate while o can do nothing else while in convalescent trial as David or Samuel of old.

For those praying for my Eyr surgery

Psalms 139:13 For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother ‘s womb.  139:14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvelous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.  139:15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.  139:16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.  139:17 How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them!  

Here I go again. Wonder why I cannot do anything small. I guess I like the attention. Really this scares me. They have lasered n cryrogenic surgery on my eye many times. Yet my retina is detached n I have to have a more invasive surgery now. I have been good obeying the docs orders as best I could. This last tear happened while just walking from the kitchen to the bedroom. The doctor believes it all relates to the time I was born. In 1964 I was born premature at 6 mos weighed around 2lbs and was 12 inches long. They did not know how much oxygen to give babies back then m it is called the year of the blind babies. The levels of oxygen caused retinal damage blinding these babies. For more than forty years I have only had nearsightedness with astigmatism. I was in an isolate for 60 days n 30 days on hosp before I went home. God allowed my twin to open the birth canal for me. Normally a boy is the weaker born n often do not make it. My sister died having given her life for me. Two have died that I might live. Tammy lorene in 1964  for physical life n Jesus 2000 years ago for eternal. Life n forgiveness of sins. I am greatly. Blessed with so many friends n family praying for me. What God allows now is ob my doctors hands n his. He created me n knows all abt me. I unequivocally trust God though I am nervous. Pray that I have the patience of job n the meekness of moses, the faith of enoch, the courage of David. The perseverance of paul, the grace of barnabas, the presence of thot like esther, the surrendered spirit of Mary n the servants heart n worshipful attitude of Martha m Mary respectively. May u witness n exemplify Christ while in the hospital as Noah n john the baptizer. N may I grow as I meditate while o can do nothing else while in convalescent trial as David or Samuel of old.

A tribute

Amazing that I can listen to musical pieces written by a man whom deafness stole even the essence of the beauty of his work. The songs of his souls most inner voices heard only by his heart penned to paper still resonate hundreds of years since his hands quivered with warmth n life. His passions cold n lifeless n the grave echo no more for him on this shore but the song speaks yet today as timeless as the breath of God that caused his voice to cry out at birth. The creative genius posited within the clefts greyed n lost amid inkstained fingers and yellowed music sheets still strikes a chord among tthe greatest whom ever lived loved n died. Such effort that stilled audiences for generations may yet move hearts to come surely has a grander audience there amid the purest of instruments, clearest of voices on heavens shores. The amazing height n depth of his creativity cannot help but be augmented in the grandest hall m audience ever enjoined. God bless the musical genius of Beethoven.

A confident prayer for peace

None are so safe as those whom God keeps; none so much in danger as the self-secure – C. H.  Spurgeon

Jesus came to give us peace better than the worlds peace. He commands us to be peace makers, m to live at peace as much as possible. He gives us the spirit which produces peace as fruit in our lives. He is called God of peace n calls us onto his peace. He brings peace to demonic filled minds, troubled hearts. He gave peace to a woman twelve years ill without hope of drs cures, to a man lame all his life. To lepers reviled by society, to children even his church were rejecting. He gave peace to the widow whom society would not help by restoring her son to life. While Grieving folks gathered at the cross he gave peace to a dying theif n then to his best friend john n to his aged mother. His actions on the cross r the path of peace between sinful Man n a thrice holy God. The letters from Paul n most new testament writers speak of Gods peace. It is from him, through him, in him n by him. He is the prince of peace m confidence in him because he is ever faithful which bring true peace. He said his thoughts towards u n about ur future r thoughts of peace.  Even in the last book n last chapter he speaks peace n confidence. First the peace of a promised future without sin, then a peace in the spirits n churches work n salvation which is a work of peace, then peace to aged john on patmos which rings true for us today..peace in his prophecied imminent return.

Romans 15:13 Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.  15:14 And I myself also am persuaded of you, my brethren, that ye also are full of goodness, filled with all knowledge, able also to admonish one another.  

Philippians 4:4 Rejoice in the Lord always: and again I say, Rejoice.  4:5 Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand.  4:6 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.  4:7 And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.  4:8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.  4:9 Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.  

When we rest in him, trust in him, lean on him, meditation on his word, person, attributes, sing to him, obey him. He fills our praises with himself,.in his word, comes to us, abides with us n us n acts through us. And this God of hope. Confidence, n joy willl guard our hearts. May his peace rest upon the troubled storms of ur life this day is my prayer

Trials our proving ground

Trials teach us what we are; they dig up the soil, and let us see what we are made of – C. H. Spurgeon

Genesis 22:1 And it came to pass after these things, that God did tempt Abraham, and said unto him, Abraham: and he said, Behold, here I am .  22:2 And he said, Take now thy son, thine only son Isaac, whom thou lovest, and get thee into the land of Moriah; and offer him there for a burnt offering upon one of the mountains which I will tell thee of.  22:3 And Abraham rose up early in the morning, and saddled his ass, and took two of his young men with him, and Isaac his son, and cleaved the wood for the burnt offering, and rose up, and went unto the place of which God had told him.  

Where r u at in the race of life? Does ur world seem upside down? Are the walls closing in, the foundations crumbling? Has ur hope faded; ur world caved in?  Such moments challenge who n  what we r . The mettle of character stated in our belief system n world view become strong or fail in the forges of testing. When times r good n the  paths easy we can easily say God is n has all we need. However,  when the water flows over our head n our lungs ache n body cries for the freedom to just breathe do we face the seriousness of true faith in God. When Abram said he would obey God faith found easy response. Did he have second thoughts  before the morning they headed to mt moriah. When his son asked him where the sacrifice would come from abram’s faith surely found the fires of testing heated a mite hotter. Surely the morning sarai saw them off for their dad n son worship retreat did abram tremble when she wished Isaac a safe journey. We have no evidence abram shared this terrible act of obedience required by GOD with his wife. How the night before must have been. Abram may have made several trips to his oak shrouded prayer closet. During the night as he restlessly tossed in sleeplesso uncertainty did sarai try to appease her husband with a back rub n encouraging words. Did abram portray this as a rite of passage for this young man who had been the child of promise to he n aged sarai?
As they almost reached the end of their journey, did abrams heart leap to his throat as God verified the location for this sons sacrifice? Abram had great faith in God for the scripture clarifies that he did believe God. His faith went further than death cuz he believed that if he did slay his son God would resurrect Isaac. These insights hardly clears definitions muster when we only read the passage in genesis.
Genesis 22:5 And Abraham said unto his young men, Abide ye here with the ass; and I and the lad will go yonder and worship, and come again to you. 
this common phrase appears likely as idiomatic language n does not show the depth of abrams faith. It’s as if abram says we will only be gone a bit wait here till we return. We hardly hear faith in the resurrection power of God.
However God gives insight to abram depth of faith in the nt book of Hebrews

Hebrews 11:17 By faith Abraham, when he was tried, offered up Isaac: and he that had received the promises offered up his only begotten son,  11:18 Of whom it was said, That in Isaac shall thy seed be called:  11:19 Accounting that God was able to raise him up, even from the dead; from whence also he received him in a figure.  

Now surely none of our testing rise to abrams obvious level.  however tmall trials share the common facet as Spurgeon pointed out. What does ur trial teach u about the character of God n what have u uncovered about ur character? Are u more like God or less like him?
Trials are the pressure God uses to prove his children. Like tests n school help reveal what we r learning n retaining; life trials reveal our true character. Are u surprised, passing or failing? Train n learn so u may pass the exam. Live the life of faith n receive one day the highest honor…well done faithful one enter in to joy.